End of Thursday and in our fourth week here at Hospice… June is almost over and the time has slipped away. Even when it seems that the days might drag on and on they really haven’t. I’m sure that it is God’s answer to all of the prayers lifted up for our family. Eric continues to weaken. In fact when I submitted the last blog, Eric was already turning the corner to the tough days he faces now. Eric told us that he is ready to be healed eternally and tired of this earthly pain and suffering. But although he has submitted himself to God’s Will in spirit, his body continues to fight the battle because he is young and strong. I struggle daily to understand why Eric must continue to fight this battle. I read this in Lamentations earlier this week.
The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!”
The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him. So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the Lord.
That morning I especially noticed the last verse and specifically the word “quietly”. I’ve heard these verses many times before. In fact, Pastor Paul read them to us during one of his many faithful visits and I didn’t hear that word so much. When I read this verse, I was reminded that God has directed so many other things in my life and in the 22 years that I have had with Eric. They didn’t necessarily happened as I prayed for them but they happened and at the perfect time and they happened perfectly. I can't understand this but I do have confidence His wisdom.
Eric continues to wait humbly and quietly. He continues to witness his faith to the staff here and to his family. He continues to praise God from whom all blessings flow even when the situation could be cursed with other words. He amazes me and shows me constantly why I love him so much. At this stage, this is the most obvious trait of Eric that remains. He has brought tears to my eyes and I see tears well up in the eyes of his caregivers here at Hospice. We all know how easy it is to love Eric and to the very end, he is still impacting people in a positive way. I so often smile when I hear his words to one of the nurses. Last night before we slept, he rewarded my actions with the famous words, “thank you my love”. I wasn’t sure that he even knew I was there and these words brought so much comfort and again will be a cherished memory.
I close again thanking so many for your prayerful support. Please pray for Eric to have a peaceful passing into the arms of Jesus. Waiting quietly…. Gwen
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Gwen, I read your blog yesterday and just wanted you to know that prayers for your family have been on mind throughout yesterday and today. We don't understand why God allows us to linger, but evidently Eric's purpose in life isn't quite finished - your family is sure to see blessings in days and years to come from the faith you show. We don't know about tomorrow but we do know who holds tomorrow and that is the assurance we need. Blessings to you.
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